What should I write, why it isn’t coming to me?
Why I am not able to express?
I am consuming enough, then why cant I create?
C.O.D.E is for Collect, Organise, Distill and Express,
Where am I stuck at,
What is hindering me to fulfill the last stage?
I know, I collect a lot,
but collecting without organising is cluttering,
Organizing without distilling is hoarding,
Distilling without expressing is unused potential.
I search and consume, but until l find an outlet to express,
I feel physically and mentally sick.
More dreadful than sitting idly,
I dread sitting on things.
I know, it will all end eventually,
Till then, I give myself purpose, and take care of affairs that matter to me.
I want to finish what I start, so that I can start something else.
I want to resolve the conflict and curiosity in my head,
so that another conflict and curiosity takes hold of me.
Overconsuming makes me feel static, passive and stuck,
When what I want is movement, result and closure.
Does not matter, all important everything,
but matters what, why, and how is something important to me.