The gravity of your life is
already enough to bare,
Yet you are carrying the stress
of people for you cared;
You were connected tight,
but are now stranger in spite.
Yes, They enhanced your life once,
but it only repress your well being today.
It feels impossible to let go, I know;
But to hold on is like watering
a dead plant that wont grow.
Be kind to yourself and
say your goodbyes in silence,
Wish them the best and
Unburden yourself from the plighting.
I had a hunch when you walked in,
that you had an ulterior motive from the beginning.
I was an open book and you I trusted,
but you were taking notes and were lusted.
I gave it a chance more than thrice,
but you know what they say
that you should learn after so many times.
I had my fair share with the narcissists ,
but it was easy to realize as they didn’t resist.
No third person would ever get the hint,
but I knew that something was wrong behind the mist.
I didn’t shy away to confront,
but you always denied the facts as if I was nuts.
You claimed it was the friendship that you want ,
but your manipulation tainted the relation from the start.
You convinced me that you are there for me as a rock,
but whenever I hit rock-bottom,
Your walk did not follow your talk.
I am grateful that I listened to my intuition,
Which now feels like dodging a bullet by that decision.
Few days before we talked, while you were boasting,
but all I could think was
that you were a wolf in a sheep’s clothing.
I always fall for it,
your shallow concerns
and intentional gestures.
There is no why,
I just fall for it.
Pathetic, Isn’t it?
But I do fall for it
lesser and lesser,
with each passing second.
I do get convinced
more and more
with more self love discovered;
That you are not the destiny ,
but you are just a subplot
that strengthens the fact
that I am the lead.
In the universe, on the planet,
on the continent,in the
most isolated city,
in the apartment,
on the bed.
Wide awake near 3am.
What do you imagine I feel,
Sad? Scared? Lonely?
I think it’s the singularity ,
The individuality,
The chaos of being
In this vast,
Not even try to define – ness
That’s what I feel.
Cure for being alone ?
I think alone is the antidote.
So no,
I am not longing
to reach anyone,
Coz I know no-one
That can be reached.
It is a strange world and stranger is the today’s Love;
We want someone independent,
But we cringe when they refuse to be vulnerable.
We want someone sensitive and loving,
But we label them needy when they tell us what we mean to them.
We want someone Loyal,
But we get easily bored by the stability.
We want someone unique,
But we get intimidated by the difference.
We want someone daring and wild to showoff in our posts,
But we lack guts to say what we mean and prefer to ghost.
We want to be understood ,
but we do not intend to get out of our narrow bubble.
We want real connection,
But we lack the patience to have real communication.
We want to be treated right,
But we fail to give what we desire.
We definitely want to be loved,
But we conveniently ignore the key to receive love.
We accept it or not, we strongly desire nurturing and healthy relations. Maybe we need to look inside rather than finding reasons outside.
All Love.
So I watched a movie today, The Incredibles 2. It was an amazing movie with a great story line. While watching the movie a question hit me, What is the one thing common in every superhero or a hero that is the main character of the movie, let it be an animated or real movie. I recollected every movie I have ever seen that had some inspirational message behind it. The qualities that I was brainstorming were superpowers, superhuman abilities, nice costumes, a will to help others, money maybe, strong virtues and morals, sad back story, a passion to make change.
All these seemed the perfect answers, but then it just clicked that it is their belief in self that makes it possible to do things that are seemingly impossible or too hard to be done. I remember a scene from one of my favorite movies, wonder woman . It is when Antiope is training Diana( wonder woman) and says to her, ” YOU KEEP DOUBTING YOURSELF DIANA”. In my opinion its the best dialogue and a turning point of the movie. As Diana starts to believe in herself that she can stop the God of War, she becomes more strong, more sure of her self and her abilities. Yes she had superpowers but she had to first believe in herself and her strength to discover those powers.
We all have tendencies to doubt ourselves, I know I am guilty too for doing it myself. I can completely understand why we are more driven to not trust ourselves. It can be due to setbacks we had, some things that did not go well even after trying and working hard, It can also be the voices of people that made you think that you are not good enough that you are reflecting and subjecting on yourself.
What if we don’t doubt ourselves, our motives, our goals, our values, our capabilities, our strength?
It can all start to change once we begin to be kind to ourselves, give some credit to self for doing what we do everyday. We never know, we can also discover some magical powers once we have belief in the abilities and strength we have right now to change our lives and world around us.
P.S: My blogs are just about the things I find in my day to be motivated or inspired about.I believe that if it can encourage or gives me perspective then it can be also helpful to someone who reads it. All love.
After a long time I felt that my good hormones are ruling me and my body. Since a long time I haven’t been in touch with the child inside me. I didn’t got the chance to explore the playful side of me. It was a different day today and I am proud that I spent it well by just playing.
Australia has different branches of “Timezone” which is a gaming zone for every age group. They have a large options on what your interests are like racing games, skiing games,pinball, basketball, walking dead, virtual reality mini rider and many more.I usually am an uptight person, its just how I am taught to behave but its definitely not that fun at times..most times…So today when I was able to play , I observed that I was completely engrossed in it, I am usually unable to stay in present and always am in future or past but I was present today. All my symptoms like pounding heart, hyperventilation, stained muscles were absent.Just by doing a simple thing, Playing. It felt like I gave myself a therapy and it was an achievement.
I realized that when you inhibit what you really are and what your heart really desire, you and your life become miserable.Then why do we forget to be ourselves and do what we really mean to do. I guess we do it “to fit in”. We don’t want others bad attention, we don’t want to be the odd person out. If my human experience is anything like everyone then I believe, deep inside we don’t really want to be like others but we want to unique and be our own person that wont be replaced by any other.To be content we got to start sticking up to who we really are and what we really feel. I know its easier said that done but it doable and we can help each other to be true to ourselves rather than forcing each other to be a person that makes us feel comfortable but is not genuine.
The plane going in the air seems like going at the same speed from the ground below as you are walking ,but its not, its just the point of view that you are at which makes you feel like that.
Can it be same for the perspective we have about others and their life. It seems perfectly normal and happy from your view point but it may also have many underlying aspects to it. Things are not what they seem, I read somewhere.I guess its true after all.
Everyone is struggling in their own perfect way, some struggles are really too much to bear and some are maybe even unbearable but the struggles still exist. Just like Iron can bear more stress and impact compared to a wood; in the same way, maybe some of us are able to bear more adversity than others due to the characteristics, experiences that makes them “them”, but don’t get me wrong here,the ones bearing more or less adversity are not comparable because Iron is used to hold bridges and wood is used to make houses.Both of them are fulfilling their own purposes and going through different adversities to reach to the point of fulfilling their purposes.
The body so fragile, it breaks in a moment,
The heart so brittle, it shatters by few words ,
The life is capricious, it ends without a notice,
Yet you are sound and safe at this point,
Yet you mend your heart everytime it breaks,
Yet you live this moment with much hopes for next second.
The crux of now is just so simple,
That you are a miracle of the creation,
That you are miracle, don’t you ever forget… 
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